YOUR MOTHER's

2011-10-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

Why is it that people are so unwilling to give in, when I have already given my all.
I had already given my all, and even giving up things in me.
But why don't they ever see it?

This isn't the first time such things are happening and this is just such a fucking disappointment all over again.

2011-09-11T04:05:00.002+08:00

It's always the bad times that I turn back to this place- times when I'm insecure, I feel alone, I feel insufficient.

I have so many things to say that I don't even know where to start.
Let's just say-

His first wife still matters more, no matter what.

And fame may not be what he's after but I'm still always in the background. It's hilarious how he doesn't ever introduce me to the TT people- isn't it?
That's some food for thought.

2011-08-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

Life has been awesome!

Busy with school,
busy with kids,
busy with Boyf,
busy with studying for exams.

And yes, I am alive and kicking, still enjoying the mahjong, the supper and the alcohol. Bthxbye.

2011-07-13T02:44:00.002+08:00

Seriously,
So what if she did apologize for her outburst, it was towards you.
She still said I'm not suitable for you. That isn't anywhere near her acceptance of me.

I am, indeed, nowhere near suitable. People are talking too.

To her, you're the perfect son, with awesome grades, filial, good in Table Tennis, what else- you're almost the perfect son, seriously.

Me?
I'm a JC dropout, I'm in Poly and not doing awfully well,
I'm a clubber, I project a bad image,
I drink, I gamble, I play Mahjong.
So what if I have my own company, many don't see that. And behind all those bad points, it's enough to turn any mother away from me.

Even though I had spent half the afternoon mopping the floors of the chalet with you and Alex, and I had attempted to help with your chalet.

Mind you, I never do anything to help make my own house cleaner. I only make it messier and dirtier.

I know you appreciate all my help and concern but knowing that you have to endure through all of that just to be together with me isn't what I want my relationship to be like.

I don't doubt you when you say that you will do anything it takes to make things right. I just doubt my own ability to stand through all these and still be the same person for you. People whom love me bring out the best in me, people whom detest me shape me to whom I become.

Why can't I ever be in a relationship happily?

2011-07-11T01:18:00.002+08:00

Boyf's birthday chalet over just like that.

1st day when we reached, Alex, Boyf and I spent the whole afternoon cleaning up the chalet, mopping the floors and cleaning up dirt cos the unit was so dirty =x Argh. Then Tiff, Chee Sheng his OG mates came, Cyndi, Miao Xian and Jacky his colleagues too. And yay cos Zhenwen and Zhixiong came toooo! :D
Had drinking games cos his club/ mahjong friends were there too. Kinda funny cos they wanted to make Boyf drink but after 3 cup I said I tank. Cos I hadn't drank anything at all ;) Goodie at the games muahhaha. Mahjong/ poker etc etc after, went for a short walk with Boyf to attempt to catch sunrise but side gate was locked =x So in the end, 6-9+ am nap :)

2nd day was less busy, spent the afternoon playing Monopoly Deal with Boyf while waiting for his JC mates to come and the rest of his OG in the evening. His friends are really nice people! Had dinner together with them when the caterer came and played some warm-up no bet mahjong :) Cakecutting was okay, except Boyf's mummy didn't let me take a picture with him. Boyf was still blur blur and didn't know what to do. :( Oh well.

Night was yet another mahjong but this time round I played with them. Not bad, won quite a bit considering we weren't playing very big bets.

But after that was when some problems came in :( Went up to the room to sleep and Boyf's mummy came in and started screaming at us. Or rather, at Boyf, about her being traditional and not being able to comprehend us sharing a room despite being in seperate beds. :( Ended up both of us went downstairs to sleep in the living room cos I was afraid of sleeping alone and he didn't want to leave me alone. Felt super bad, cos he had to endure through the pain of sleeping on the hard ground too. But so blessed to have a Boyf whom would do anything for me.

Came back, thinking about things, and we're still faced with problems. Meeting Boyf tomorrow, can't wait to see him. Guess I really should thank God for such an awesome guy in my life.

Till tomorrow.

2011-07-06T01:34:00.002+08:00

So again a really busy day.

Went to Farrer Park MRT to meet Alan for lunch near his place and then drop by his place for awhile to let his mummy "see me for the first time". Ahh, funny ley. Awkward much. But quite wasted cos the 3 stalls that he wanted to bring me to eat at are closed :(

Headed out for a chat before he dropped me off at TPY for me to go meet Zijie and Heidi for movie and supper! :D So anyways, these 2 buddies of mine are really awesome :) Watched Something Borrowed, to which I fell asleep in the seat next to some random crazy girl whom laughs super loudly.. =x Wasn't that all a waste, I think I had a good rest! :P

XLB buffet dinner/ supper after that, which was mad shiok cos I hadn't had that in ages! :D Too bad Alan didn't join cos mummy wanted him home =x Ahh. Hehehehe. So yea.. Came home a happy and full girl :D

As much as Alan and I haven't been together for very long, we've had minimal issues and disagreements so far, which is really fortunate for me.. Even during the wrong-time-of-the-month, he's the one to comfort me and tell me to go home early to rest. True, that's the kinda thing a Boyf would do of course, but there are Boyfs whom don't bother and don't care. But I'm glad I have someone whom does. As much as his mummy has told him something that he doesn't like to hear, and of course also something that I don't like to hear, but I'm glad he's firm on his stand.
A text to tell me about his disappointment in that statement that someone had made, and consolations later, Facebook greets me with this from him:
"Things might come crashing down on us at times. But we have the power to make things right ♥"

I like "we". So I know I'm not alone..

2011-07-03T01:28:00.002+08:00

Had an awesome time at Shangri-La Rasa Sentosa! :D

Transformer 3 after school yesterday was quite nice, but when Bumblebee almost got killed I was sadddddddd! Bumblebee is cute and me likes!

Da bao-ed dinner back to the resort and after dinner, took a walk down the beach (not for long cos of the post-dinner interesting TV program hahhahahah) and ended up at Alan's office. Met his colleagues Miao Xian and Cyndi whom are really friendly people :D And all was fine until he met someone apparently quite up there and said he was there to "WASH FACE" Whattttttttt the =x LOL. Super funny. So went to the Rec Room where there was Foosball and Pool and yeaaaa, was fun too! :D

Chillax, bathed, and headed down to Powerhouse :) Alan was a sad case of cough so nice me took the drink his friend offered for him. Lol. Idk what drink though. Me no likey Movida anyways. Bad bad happened though, cos I fell down one step at PH and hit my tailbone. Damn damn painful and Boyf had to help to support :( Ouchhhh.

Went back to the resort early but ended up eating light supper cos stomach was growling like maddddd :P

Then again, didn't really sleep well but ohman, bed was MAD comfy, except the pillows were... Not our type =x Hhahahaha!!

On a sidenote, Ryna's birthday and they're at Grand Copthorne! Gahhh, stay home Saturday~

2011-06-29T02:00:00.005+08:00

Went to Bras Basah/ Cityhall area with Boyf and his friend Tiffany on a cake-hunt today for Boyf's birthday cake :D Tiffany is nice too!

Food for thought, Cedele, Soup spoon for dinner. Too bad Bakerzin had limited cakes left by the time we went over :(

Random Boyf- ended up we alighted from the train at Orchard to go Orchard to walk one round before we continued journey home. Lol. Random much!!

Mad mad tired, can't wait to see Boyf again on Thursday at TPY :) Wheeeee!

2011-06-27T00:22:00.003+08:00

This is my awesome Boyf :D

Went to watch Alan's competition today at Jalan Besar CC. First 2 competitors were quite a breeze for him and seriously, he was like... NUAH. Hahhaha!! Until the match where he had to play against the ex-national player guy from the Jalan Besar A Team, wow, that was where the kick came. That was the finals round for his team and he just so luckily got that guy as his opponent =x Scary much. Everyone was like LOL-ed, and he even had this bet with his friend whereby if he wins just one game, he'll get 5 bubble tea. In the end...

Game 1- Lost
Game 2- Won (In 3 minutes! BOYF ON FIRE!!)
Game 3- Won
Game 4- Lost
Game 5- WON!!!!

Everyone was so proud of Boyf when he won! Cos seriously, that guy- Boyf lost to him last year, and was expecting to really screw up again against him. But he's a happy boy now!

He did win, even though his whole team missed the Champion by one game (What a waste, seriously! The game his teammates lost was a really close fight too!) So yea, they're 2nd :)

Team leader brought all of us for food after that and nom nom nom nomz nice! :) So happy and proud of him! :D

Boyf against the ex-national player. Fierce fight!

Boyf and his really cool team!

School starts tomorrow. Argh.

2011-06-26T01:41:00.002+08:00

Alan bought a box of donuts and brought it to my place after his whole day training today. But just at that same moment, I was out shopping with Zhenwen :X

Mummy texted me and told me that Daddy received it from "yesterday that guy who came to our house". Cos yesterday Daddy came back right when he bought me lunch cos his Boss made him take half day so Daddy has met him once :P Cheeky Mummy even said "He chose 1 heart shape strawberry glavour with small chocolate on top. Lol..... Keep that for you hehehe...." WALAO. Epic please. Funny much :)

Glad to have him whom is willing to wait and help me out with telling my parents about him. True enough, everything about him is what Daddy and Mummy will easily accept. But having to be able to convince them that I will be able to manage everything is the challenge.

Too tired to continue this post yesterday. Shall continue tomorrow, cos I have to wake up later at 8.30am to go for his competition! :)

*AWKWARD SUDDEN END*

2011-06-24T13:35:00.002+08:00

Awesome day,
awesome nights,
awesome life.

My Boyfriend is probably the best Boyfriend in the world.

But I'm still wondering how things'll be like when school starts for me, and when school starts for him :( I hope things will continue to be as awesome as they are now :)

Went to watch him train Table Tennis yesterday and seriously, awesome :) Last time I ever watched anyone was... Nah, I never did enjoy as much. :)

And now? Preparing for show for later. ARgh, all the way at Changi grrrr :(
Kthxbye. I want to eat 126 dimsum for supper.

Upcoming:
Eeeew-school-reopening
Boyf's birthday party
My birthday party :D

2011-06-14T01:13:00.002+08:00

It's really painful when I really want to know what goes on in his mind and yet I can never guess, cos I'm the one he's guessing..

What happens when you have been waiting for this, yet aren't just as elated as what you've projected to be?

I'm glad I've got Zhenwen with me on this.

Someone whom cares when you obviously are sad,
someone whom has the more powerful 6th sense and knows what you're thinking,
someone whom puts in the effort, just to get to know you better so he knows if he can treat you right,
someone whom asks for you to wait, to just give a few more days for him to think again, just so he can make the right choice, to never disappoint you and make you sad.

Thank you.

2011-06-12T06:18:00.002+08:00

Havent updated in close to a month, and I must say- my life has been really exciting.

Major happenings?

My midsems are over,
I'm enjoying clubbing,
I've had great times with my bestie killgwen while she's in between jobs and I'm really glad she's found a great one now,
I've screwed up midsems (confirmed already- tutor has already called me thanks),
I'm looking forward to my 21st birthday,
and I'm..... So happy with my life right now.

Oh yes, I've made new friends, some of which are awesome. Nothing has to be announced cos nothing is......... done, yet.

Just came home not too long ago from Heidi's place- had met up with the really chapalang clique from my JC days.
Went to Dhoby to meet Luther, Heidi, Zijie, Clarence, Nic and Jamie for our L4D2 session before Xmen movie today :) Surprisingly, L4D2 is SO DAMN FREAKING FUN! But of course, being a first-timer, I kinda sucked :( Not too bad though. I wasn't last in most rounds :P

TCC dinner was hilarious with all the phototaking and such, Xmen was awesome with them, and supper at Jln Kayu was good! The prata is... Mad expensive hahha :P Headed down to Heidi's place after that for a night of Po-po-po-poker face :P Lost like siao pleaseee, but heng siao last round had me the luck of the night and 3 people played along to bring up my amount to cover my losses and still profit a LITTLE bit overall. But it was a really exciting and fun session! Stupid Nic and ZJ whom were uber... Persistent in being entertained by their "Big BRIND" instead of Big Blind. -.- Crazy people at late hours of the night hahha.. Ended off session at 5am. But it was a really fun time I had with them, squeezing 6 people in the car, eating prata and maggi goreng, funniest thing was the L4D2 larh seriously. But still...... Love them :)

And oh yes, before I forget, I've moved on, and really have done so.. Thank you for being who you once were. And no matter come what may, you'll always be that awesome person I knew, know, and will remember as.

2011-05-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how rarely I blog nowadays. Anyway, no one else probably cares about this space besides me.

Priorities of some people changed. I became someone important in some people's lives, and faded into the background, into nothingness, in some. It's all part of life, part of growing up, part of CHANGE.

But no, I refuse change. I'm going to stay the way I am. I hate whom I had become in the past week. I had always been a good girl and will stay that way.

I dont smoke, I dont drink excessively, I dont club often, I dont scold unbelievably rude vulgarities.
And I'm not going to change into someone who is.

I had such an awesome day with the 4e6 clique. Madness running with bells jingling around the condo, chapteh, dumbass balloon volley, Dominoes pizza, and blah blah blah. Games day was so awesome. I really really really love this bunch of friends :)

And yes, goodnight to the world- I do not have low self-esteem.

2011-05-11T03:47:00.003+08:00

SYF for NYCO was a blast. Skipped school to attend their competition and it was well-worth the effort and time. Gold with honours. Good job NYCO :)

And seriously, I can't fit in the class. And I'm not gonna continue trying. All I know is that I need to focus on my projects, my lectures, my tutorials, my business. And I don't want to spend extra credits off my energy meter befriending anyone. And it's not like the first time I'm speaking and they look at me like "Huh..??". You know, I don't know what's changing or what isn't. But what I really don't care, is how others see me anymore.

They are NICE people, really nice people. But I just think I'm not going to be able to remember how to befriend others while I'm here.

I'm not going to get a boyfriend from my poly,
I'm not going to get a boyfriend from my class.
There, I've said it. Those are my thoughts.

And I'll probably stay focussed on my dreams, and stay single for the next 2 years.

Zhenwen reckons I'm overstressed. Oh well. Whatever. I'm gonna wake up tomorrow morning forgetting this anyway.

2011-05-04T02:57:00.003+08:00

Was a mad crazily happy evening.

Yes, even if the world rejects my blog, Huifang still loves it.

Hanging out with my friends would be the best thing that ends my terrible days at school. As much as my days are really really intolerable nowadays, I've realised I havent anyone to talk to.

And then again, sometimes I wonder when was the last time someone said "Thanks" for some things I've always been doing. Even it becomes normal, it's still a favour I have an option to skip. I dont have to buy any friends, but I buy people lunch when they mean something to me and I want to share what I have with them.

But why am I not even considered as a friend sometimes?

Maybe Charlene's right.
But then again, others always are. I'm never right. So why bother?

2011-04-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

Many things have happened, I've been lazy to blog, and I'm still a mess D: But I passed my AFP Module 1 though :) Though I dont know how I did it, with all the drama of Stomachache + Chiong toilet + Falling asleep for 20 min in the exam, and sleeping in ALL my classes, but I still freaking cleared the 75% to pass! HAHHAHAHHA..

School's starting on Monday and I'd actually just come back from a 3d2n trip to Genting. Some relaxation man, true 'nuff with the theme park fun and all, but here's what else happened:

1. 6.30am leave Tampines1- but ended up the coach only came at 7.30am
2. Coach was spoilt, aircon was non-existent, dropped us off at Boonlay to switch to another coach, but the other coach was abit lost also, it actually went all the way to checkpoint without us
3. Reached Genting and only managed to check-in at 4.40pm
4. Winston got sick on the 1st night- loss of voice terribly
5. Missed breakfast on 2nd morning cos we woke up too late
6. Got bombed with terrible news on the 2nd night- bad bad news
7. According to Winston, somewhere in the night he scolded me cos I went past the line of my bed onto his =x
8. Stupid irritating kids on the Bumper cars
9. Carsick on the way back- OMG I tell you

But it was still funny with all the awkward-meet-Jeremy-and-friends-along-the-way and herbal tea eggs peeling issue with Winston and the lack of pictures taken hahha. Really just played and played and played- Themepark, softtoys, pool, bowling, oh yes did I mention I broke 3 GEL EXTENSION MANICURES??? ARGHHHH!! Stupid Winston reckons it's funny -.- Rarrrr. And Ernest is like the missing one whom went to meet his friends. Lol.

So yeaaaa, made our way safely back in Singapore with a terrible lack of sleep even though we generally slept 11.30pm to 8am on both nights hahahha. But today has made up for all lost time when I was overseas- replying mails, delegating work, attempts to rectify problems to no apparent avail, and yes, sleep sleep sleeping.

Gonna have to go for seafood dinner with family tomorrow. Supposed to be something I'm gonna be enthu about cos it means crabs and all but I'm kind of missing the herbal tea egg + Maggi mee suppers we had at Genting :D Hehehehe.

Part of me just wants to run away from everything in Singapore! I havent even bought a new pencil case for school hehehhe. Btw, TIMETABLE SUCKS. Argh. I miss Abi and co, and I miss my carefree lifestyle.

I'm just 20, I shouldnt be tied down with so many responsibilities...

2011-04-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

Wowowow :D

1. Free Cone day (12 Apr) was awesome!
2. Visit back to ex-VE now-PP was quite an okay~

So FCD! Had some madness period in preparation the day before- scooping pints for our own staff, scooping the cups for the tenant-friends, and the decorations and setup on event floor! :) But it was much fun.

FCD proper was madddddddddness totally! The queue started at like 20 minutes before 12pm. By the time 12pm hit, there was a uber long queue, which never got shorter. Hahahaha. Scooped Sberry Cheesecake, one certain bulk which killed me cos it was SO FREAKING hard cos they didn't thaw it sufficiently :( So yah, arm ached cos of THAT bulk! :( Grrr. But nevertheless, we all had fun with all the cheers, screams, complaints, laughters etc etc etc :)

And FCD ended with happy and tired Scoopys. Did I mention aching and now-more-muscular? Hhahahaha..

So headed down to PP today with Winston cos he wanted to purchase some parts for his water system. Turned out more welcoming than what I'd expected. Heard of some new CAs, happy to see some of them, saw Mr S (Yah, awkward, and upline laughed), and yeaaaa, the office is smaller. Hahhahhaha. =x But well...... :) Till next time hahahhaha.

Hahahahah GENTING SOON :)

2011-04-10T02:30:00.002+08:00

It's been such a hectic, dramatic night.

Scolded by client just after one good show,
Screwed up reputation for awhile,
Unsolved issues,
Punctured tyre (LOL at Winston).

But at least I had a great dinner with Amanda, Hayden, and of course Winston. Gosh.

I'm looking forward to 19-21 April... :)

2011-04-03T01:50:00.001+08:00

I'm so glad I have you back by my side.

I've missed a best friend to talk to. And today was great. :)

2011-04-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

All I want for my mom's birthday, is a peaceful dinner, and a AFP cert. :)

I've already lost the first cos no one's free. Am I really gonna lose the latter too? I'm still trying.

2011-03-30T22:33:00.001+08:00

Stuck on this horrendous song. It's not nice but it's just playing and playing. Argh. Boredom.

The music's on and I'm dancing
I'm normally in the corner just standing
I'm feeling unusual
I don't care cause this is my night

I'm not myself tonight
Tonight I'm not the same girl same girl
I'm not myself tonight
Tonight I'm not the same girl same girl

I'm dancing alot and I'm taking shots I'm feeling fine
I'm kissing all the boys and the girls
Someone call the doctor cause I lost my mind

Cause I'm doing things that I normally won't do
The old me's gone I feel brand new
And if you don't like it **** you

2011-03-28T00:16:00.003+08:00

Life's been exciting. Highly exciting. Maybe selectively..

Went to Butterfactory yesterday night after overcoming all potential fears I would face. Hahahha. :D To celebrate birthday boy Ziyang's 20th too! And yes, was a blastttt. Eric and his friends are HILARIOUS. Spelt in capitals, mind you~ The socially-awkward guy just toh-ed after they forced him 20 seconds since it was his birthday. Too baddddd :P Counted seconds for a few of them but they seem to be.... Perfectly sober =x Hahahha. But friendly and high people! Nice :) Also saw Eric's VIP friend whom came with a birthday boy :D Hahaha! Birthday boy just couldn't seem to get my name right :( Rawr.

But was fun with them, except for the stupid fight which broke out RIGHT BESIDE US =.= Walao. Seriously, mega scary can? Seemed like 10 bouncers appeared within a span of 3 seconds into the fight. Wonder where all of them came from also. But lots of broken glass. Stepped onto many. :( Rawr. But easily cleared up lar. Nice staff at Butter :) But the fight wasn't easily stopped man! Scary!

Was a rather funny ending cos we went to the counter for water cos I said I wanted ice water, and turns out all the guys followed us. :P Ended up the stupid bartender decided to be funny and gave us a BUCKET of water -.- Like really the bucket that they put ice in, they put icewater in there with straws for us =.= LOL.. Nice. Zhenwen came along and got a shot glass of water. HAHHAHA contrast :)

Tired night, ended with Nokia phone clock screwed and me thinking I was late in going home =x Hahahha okay that was quite.. Embarrassing.

And I finally got my camera today :D Papa bought me T99 cos I really like it and it's got the colour I want! Plus I picked it when it's on offer so it's an easy deal for dad :D Hehehehhehe.. I somehow think he'll still forget that that's my 21st birthday pressie and still buy me something during my birthday HAHAHHAH!! :D Okay evil me.

Just got back from meeting Abi and co for Sogurt and it was awesome :) I love them! Except for the fact they asked about him. Hahaha. Well, see lah Winston, they remember you okay, they remember your parrot too :D Hehehehehhe..

Oh yes, Heaven's Loft last day today. Went to bid it goodbye, got my Cold Stone Creamery icecream, camera, and now, time for some movies and then SLEEP! :D

2011-03-24T00:28:00.003+08:00

Ahh, life's been a packed mess. Okay maybe not a mess. But seriously, I need to get my direction. It's a whole load of combination between:
1. Studying for AFP
2. Working at B&Js
3. Mapping out the whole marketing set for FP
4. Taking calls from clients all day and night
5. Replying non-stop to emails

Oh where did my life go? To my sprained ankle- thankyou verymuch. I still think there was an implanted curse which resulted in the sprain ankle the same very night that... Ahh whatever. But I'm glad my holidays aren't times that I just space out~ Hahahha!!

Got a call from Jintian today afternoon and yea, she wants t meet up. Gosh, haven't seen her in AGES! Like, since my birthday? D:

Gotta get busy again, planning schedule of April, manage emails, blah blah.. Huhu~ Busy life :) Ktksbye!

2011-03-20T23:04:00.003+08:00

Too busy with nothing to do anything/ too busy with everything to do nothing.

Ohgosh, I need more corporate business.

2011-03-16T02:01:00.003+08:00

Ahh, finally back home from the outing with the USQ girls.

Was a great time I had. I'll continue this post when I wake up. Zz.

And korkor is going to the states for 2 weeks. Gonna mad mad miss you okay brother :) Enjoy your time there and stay safe! <3

2011-03-12T02:12:00.002+08:00

Has it ever occured to you what would happen to me if tomorrow the world just came to an end?

Have you ever thought how I'd be if I had to lose you one day?

Have you ever once, thought of how hurt I may be or even how painful it is for me to endure through the mental torture of having to worry day and night?

All the results have to be out.

Why do some people not know how to take care of themselves. They don't know how to love themselves. Even when going to the clubs, there's a limit to what you should and what you shouldn't do.

I don't have to resort to stalking anyone. But one day when everyone turns against me, I might. Because I fuckign hate all of you.

Oh you know what, as much as I would like to respect him for being my boss in the past, for having once had my total respect and admiration, but sorry, his selfishness, obssessively money-minded state, has pushed me to conclude his self-centredness and his wife's stupidity for wanting to live with him. I could probably not ever look at him in the eye again, except for the very painful fact that he still owes me my paycheque from 6 months ago.

I learnt how to love. How about you? You're still nothing but just worse than what I knew you used to be.

2011-03-11T00:41:00.002+08:00

Was an awesome day and night :)

Airwave was a blast :) Even though it wasn't the best drive but me loikes! And I think Winston likes too :) Hehehe!! Met up with Ernest for dinner, headed to walk walk at IT show, then picked up Weijian and Zhenwen for supper. Awesome things that we ate today:

1. Ikea Chicken wings and Meatballs
2. Tze Char at Tanglin Halt- 5 dishes
3. 126 dimsum!- like 10 dishes??!

Lol ohkay, huifanglikeapig.com.sg hahhaha :P But I'm super happy today cos it was a great time that we had yes? :D Love that awesome car!

Oh oh oh, did I mention I've class tomorrow at 9am? AHHH..
And then it's over to Starbucks for study!

PS. Plans to go ECP today fail-whale~

2011-03-05T23:04:00.002+08:00

GOSH, it's finally after the exams. Had a great gathering at night with the poly mates after our last paper! WOOHOOO! Pleaseeee, Banking and Finance people sadness- everyone in Biz school seems to finish their paper earlier than us! Gosh..

Nevertheless, relax a little for this weekend, next week AFP class starts. Super soon pleaseee, short break only. Then back to mugging.

Met up with Tom too, caught up on times, and realised how silly I'd been when in MBKP. Hahha.. Should meetup with Alexander soon too :) Havent seen him ever since before he left for Arizona! That is, not counting seeing him on Skype just once hahha. Got lots of plans, need time to work them out and implement them. Gosh, this hols are fried hahahha =x

Alright time to go submit my long-due Cheers audits.

2011-02-28T03:10:00.000+08:00

I'm really anticipating life after graduation from Poly. At least I'll be done with my post-Sec school education after a long delay of like what- 5 years in total. Ohman. Winston happy already, graduated. I've still gotta endure and try hard to top through 1 more year. Argh :(

Had a great time today even though the show didn't go as well as expected. Actually, didn't expect it to be awesome either cos I was already expecting very few kids. Hais whatever~ But had a good dinner and said whatever I had wanted to say. Bahaha =x

And I'm glad that Abi's always there no matter how busy she is. And the fact that she does show me her care and concern, even though through Twitter, is really enough for me. I've gradually realised how friends do drift apart no matter how close we used to be. Our friendship was too short-lived.

"Like how you built it. RMB, It's YOU.""
Ask urself what you really want. What is the best. Think with brain, not heart."
Thanks AbiSHE for this awesome encouragement. She's always the one whom picks me up nowadays (Pun unintended!) awesome girl she is :)

What makes me smile:
- Just someone to make me smile
- Memories

What makes me cry:
- Memories

Hhahaha and I thought I was simple enough. Nah, too complex. Too dependent, too reliant, too trusting. Gosh, I have so many minus points. No wonder listening to Fucking Perfect invokes strong feelings in me :D I like that song, never knew the title, glad korkor told me the title today! :)

Alright time to sleep. Kthxbye.

2011-02-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

Spoiler= Youtube. Hahha. Watched Zhu Hao's final performance AGAIN, and wellll, even though she was so shaken that day her voice was unstable when singing, she sang it really well and all the audiences were so deeply touched by her innocence and love for her parents and boyfriend!

New song the next time I go to Kbox ;)
No point blogging Chinese lyrics cos I cant read it properly on blogger HAHAH :(

Missing thoughts is a very obscure thing
like shadow ~ taking shape of whatever
Silently and breathlessly resurface at the bottom of heart
In a blink of an eye ~ shrouded me in loneliness
I weakly fight against, especially at night
Think of you till breathless
Hate that I can't immediately sprint towards you
Loudly tell you ~
willing for you, I'm willing for you
I'm willing to forget my name for you
Even if just an extra second in your embrace
No regrets losing the world
I'm willing for you, I'm willing for you
I'm willing to be left at the end of the world for you
As long as you sincerely reciprocate with love
anything (i'm) willing
Anything (i'm) willing for you

2011-02-25T10:34:00.003+08:00

I feel very IRRITATED when they have to resort to LYING to me to get me to help out.

IF you don't have the intention at all to do it, DONT tell me you're going to, ask me to work with them, and then say "Oh no, we have our own girl". Seriously, I don't give a damn who I'm with. I've had the worst people and I've endured through it. What's one or two or a hundred more times? But it irks me that while I am doing my best whenever I can, you guys are not putting in any effort at all, and giving me this bullshit.

Don't come ask me for doing any other favours anymore cos I won't give up any recreation time for the sake of stupid fake promises.

Yes, I see these as fake promises. I've had enough fake promises. I should really take the advice of the seniors that you guys can't be trusted AT ALL. I was naive enough to believe you. Not anymore :) Endured enough shit.

It's not those who put you down whom are your true friends, but those whom put you down, pick you up from there, and walk on with you.

2011-02-25T00:12:00.004+08:00

My life is monotonously boring.

FOI in 9 hours time. I don't want to sleep, but my parents are forcing me.

I need to study.

And it's when you feel so pent up that you really need someone by your side badly, then you realise that, he doesn't give a shit, no matter how much you cared for him, when nobody else did.

And yes, that friend goes around, cherishing others, and where are you placed at?

Behind him.

I realise how many people couldn've been offended by this. But fuck. If they don't even care, why should I?

No wonder they said he wasn't worth loving. Ha...

2011-02-24T00:14:00.001+08:00

Just spent the past few days studying, and today I realised nothing has really entered my mind at all. I'm distracted by neverending issues which are not related to studies or even work.

Friday's first paper :) Tomorrow's gotta be the best day for studying I believe.

And well, kids are always kids. They won't make a difference no matter how matured they act...

2011-02-21T01:38:00.000+08:00

Watched Black Swan on my com :) It's awesome.

I cried.

2011-02-17T02:56:00.002+08:00

Just something I found while doing my TPAS final assignment, that I like. =)

Somehow, we have been through a few 'last tutorials' together this week. But I never felt the need to take any pictures with any of my tutors. But tomorrow, is our last Storytelling lesson. I feel a stronger bond with all of them, maybe because we've all shared something personal to ourselves. We shared stories, we shared joy, tears, encouragements, everything..

Friends are friends forever together 'till the end.
You promised me that you would always be my friend.
One day something changed I'm not sure what it was.

I lost you on that day and the reason was because
it was a late dark night and we had a stupid fight.
And for some reason, I don't know why, we couldn't make it right.

We went our separate ways.
This went on for days and days.
I made new friends and you made yours,
but that hole in my heart could not be filled for that hole was only yours.

Times got really tough,
my road of life was, oh, so rough.
I needed friends, not the kind you see from day to day,
but the kind that will always and forever stay.

Memories were all I had
and just the thought of them made me sad.
I cried every night wondering how to make it right.
I wish you could erase that day and that fight.
Would you please forgive me? I don't know where to start...

2011-02-15T22:27:00.004+08:00

Got back PFP project results today. Again, my group topped the class, with a sad B. GOSH.. Other classes get A, high A, and our top is a B?? Miss Toh talked to us about how our project could have easily gotten an A, and well, we were not convinced still =( Jane and Ailing were cursing and whining away. Hahahha. In the end, Miss Toh said she'll see how she can add on more marks to our report =) A blessing for me to have them as my groupmates actually! Cos they pulled up my miserable F grade for mid-sems, to a now C+ for my coursework. They GMH =)

Last lesson of Commskills 2 today, no feeling at all. Still maintaining a B, not inclusive of interview yesterday and class participation. Hopefully I can be pulled up to a B+ at the very least! =) Heeeeee.

On the other hand, no class tomorrow, which is a good thing =) Gonna head down to FP to and in my AFP form with SP and Nad. Hopefully all of us will do well in this course! :P

Off to project and game :P HEHEHEHHE..

2011-02-14T22:02:00.002+08:00

Another friend leaving for overseas. And to top it off, this person's my childhood friend- my Primary school...... biggest crush. Bahahhaha. Hey that's totally cute okay :P But yea, he left for a super havoc country lar so I guess he's gonna have fun there. Hahahahah -.-

Interview today was.... Terrible. Never once in my life have I feared an interview that much, or come out feeling THAT terrible =( Closing in on exams- kinda half-hearted about it cos of what I'm expecting after the exams. Ohwell!

AFP has been decided. Will go check with Miss Toh on our queries tomorrow and then it's form-filling and submission soonsxz =)

Oh you know what, Story Portfolio sucks when done at the last minute. Hahhah fml. =(

2011-02-12T02:01:00.001+08:00

Winston... says:
tell our guys if they want to contact both of us officially, just write in to enquiry@funt
or should we have another mail
contactyourbosses@funt
LOL

HUIFANG! says:
LOL
DAMN LAME HAHAHHAH\
i just burst out laughing lo
fml
lol

Winston... says:
want anot
contactyourbosses@funtertainment.com.sg

Can I punch this irritating brother? LOL...

2011-02-08T02:20:00.002+08:00

To them, I'm probably just yet another typical 'temporary staff' whom won't stay for long and belongs 'out-of-the-clique'.

Hey girls, it doesn't help when I hear you all talk about this person today, and then tomorrow I'm treated like her too, and for no apparent reason.

I can't complain either. I'm just a typical rich girl whom can't work in your eyes, ain't I?

Some things, they can't be changed easily. One thing- Opinion.

It's the first time I felt like working at that place was as good as killing myself. Yah, I hate it now, can? And having your manager give you weird attitude isn't that nice either. No support.

Working with such terrible people, that's even worse.

2011-02-07T01:14:00.001+08:00

Steamboat dinner with NTU peeps was awesome :D NTU mad ulu though!

Need to go finish up my stupid Cheers forms and study for tomorrow's Commskills test now that I'm done with the website's text. Like NOW! Bye!

2011-02-03T04:45:00.001+08:00

Just came home from Mochi-snatching =X Nah, kidding =) Went out with parents to Chinatown, to really get into the atmosphere! Hahha.. Mad snatching of mochis~ Paid $5 for a plastic and it's a take-all-you-want kinda thing :P So papa, mama and I left with a freaking fat bag of mochis + each person with a fistful of more mochis HAHAHHAHAHAHA.. Total takeaway? 200 mochis+peanutsnacks =D Wu hua like maddddddd =)

Heading down to Grandma's place with 7 pints tomorrow for everyone, and enjoy good food with gambling =)

2011-01-31T23:06:00.002+08:00

Rain rain rain.. Whole day it has been raining, wouldn't have left my hoodie if not for work =X

Dramatic day today- chiong-ing PFP submission, missing 99% of CBK lecture in the end. Hais. Went to talk to Mr Chong about my NGP and he says he wants to hear of reasons why he should give me a 2nd chance.. Cried lo, what else.. He didn't seem willing and he reprimanded me =( Well, not like I didn't deserve it. But I apologized and I'm putting in effort... =( Keeping my fingers crossed for the best.

IF lecture was terrible. Stupid idiots from a particular course are freaking childish and rowdy. How to concentrate in lecture with such people??! Damn. Shouldn't let them crash our lecture lo LOL. =P
Tutorial with D after was... Okay lah. Challenged me in front of the whole class to sell him something lo. Just cos he said my resume is OUTSTANDING.. Hahhahahha =P Ended up was a rather funny situation. He's an awesome tutor but.. abit uncomfortable sometimes eg today LOL. =X

Then again, today evening I knew that I'm regaining my touch, and I'm about to have regained my focus. Thanks to idiot(s) whom cause me to lose focus, you all can go die!! =( I'm going to emerge even stronger this time round.... Teehee!

2011-01-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

Blog isn't just blog anymore.

Some people just dont seem to BOTHER or even CARE. Haiyoh, quite disappointing when I think I can do it and put in so much effort, having FORCED myself even, to attempt to accomplish tasks I would never have set myself to do, and then I fail and no one really bothers. Lol.

Yah, my GPA is going down down down down down. And my mood isn't going up anywhere or any day soon. FML.

Work on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, packed with revision lectures, makeup lessons due to CNY, and some unexciting people. I'm not looking forward to work. Insensitive people are not helping either. I wont waste time on people like you- meeting me just for the sake of doing so and waiting for time to past. WTF. I have better things to do.

I have so many things to do- work, company, studies. I still have to prove to Mr Chong that I'm not worth the 1.0 non-graded. I can't afford to have m GPA down any further.

Sometimes, all I need is for someone to talk to at night. And thanks C, for being that person tonight! :) Now I know why I'm able to comfortably tell the clique today "Nah, what like? It's just being used to having someone special in my life. Time passes like moving on." and I'm glad I met the clique today for The Green Hornet! :)

Oh you know what? Project tomorrow in school too. TMD :(

2011-01-28T01:27:00.002+08:00

Never felt so in my life, that my life would be in isolation after I step out of the school.

Studying is done alone,
tutorials done alone,
going for CDS alone even.

Too bad, no one's in my same CDS. Thank God for this awesome CDS class where we shared our stories over the weeks and got closer. I still dont know what's that guy's name, but he waved at me when I entered the class and I felt so much happier. Yah lah handsome guy, but it's not the kind of unique happiness but the kind of happiness that I know I belong with this class. And all the year 1s in the CDS class whom never fail to brighten up my day with a smile even though I dont know if they know my name. :) Our final assignment due very soon, and we had a really short lesson today. For once, I felt sad. Cos I know I'll miss this class, whereby we weren't close, but yet had that thing in common- we knew of one another's stories.

Studying mood is starting to really bring my mood down on a whole. I dont even feel the need to doze off or stone off in class. I hate how I really have to be forced to sit down and listen to something that I know nothing about.

Just give me time off from everything to catch up with my studies, can?

I need to study for International Finance test, catch up at least 5 chapters of FOI and PFP, and finish up PFP project. What kind of weekend is this? Thank goodness I've given up the show to PW and Hayden instead.

I just need... More time.... And more motivation..

As sweet as their love, their song, perfect.

2011-01-26T03:14:00.002+08:00

Still pondering over how to settle this problem. Seems minor maybe to everyone else, but it's a mega problem for me. Didn't want to post it here but I have no other alternative. I don't have a diary.

Dont read on if you dont wish to ensure rubbish ranting from me.

I dont like to work with someone whom freaking looks like a replica, except a taller version of his ex girlfriend. I feel like a loser standing next to her because it reminds me of things she probably had that I have never gotten. I dont like to work with this girl not because I detest her but because each time I look at her the two people I see are you and your ex girlfriend. It's irritating because each time I think about it it gets me 1000x more upset than how I should be feeling. There's no point in me enduring through all these cos at the end of the day, I know I wont be able to see her as a true friend, as part of the family.

Sorry but I'm a sore loser. I probably cant endure working any day alone with her. Sorry JE. I just gave up trying after meeting you for the 1st time today.

I dont/wont like working with you.

2011-01-26T01:56:00.001+08:00

The expression in your eyes is so full of beauty, taking away my heartbeat
Your gentleness is so close, taking away my heartbeat
Time turns back to the beginning, can I have just one more second?
Waiting for that day when you too will think again
Of that happiness suspended in our memories

:)

2011-01-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAH been neglecting this best friend of mine. Awww sorry bloggie :P HEHEHEHHEHE..

I really need to blog about today cos it's such a ...... EVENTFUL day. Gel extensions, work, stupid irritating customers whom took down my tidied-up-closing-soon-furniture, taxi I was in almost got into a major accident, and GETTING AN ERP FINE FROM LTA.

Omg mega funny. I received a letter for a fine for driving through a gantry at Cairnhill Road, on 19th Nov 2010, 4.20pm. HELLOOOOO, I didn't drive for like 2-3 months before December's Subaru okayyyyy!?!??! Texted neo immediately and he rectified it for me. 15 minutes later called me and said that it was their admin whom made a mistake. Tmd.....

AND STOP IT LAH STOP FORCING ME!! I DONT WANT TO TRAIN ANYONE I DONT WANT MY DOUBLE PAYRISE I DONT WANT ANYTHING ELSE EXCEPT FOR SOME THANKYOU AND ABIT MORE LOVE. :(

Yah, stressed at work.... FML.

Need. To. Study :)

2011-01-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

Had a reeeeeeally awesome night studying :)

The past week has been madness ttm. Tried very hard to get into the mood of studying but I can't just seem to settle down! :( Lots of madness~

Today's plans to study from 1pm till evening epic fail, cos WJ called me to go Town. Wellllll, so I went of cos. HAHAHAH.. Evening then study, so Thomson Plaza Starbucks for the first time! :) But omg, no aircon! D: But the atmosphere there was rather good :) Just a wee bit dim :X Hahahha and what a coincidence, I met Wanwin there! What a surpriseee, after not seeing her ever since after O levels I think? HAHAHHA!! She was there to mug too! Finance ftw :P And I was kinda pressurized to study cos she was like... Mugging too! Hahaha and can see she's super serious in her revision...

And I think I got drunk on International Finance lar, 4 hours, 3.5 chapters. Madness one :X But I am proud of myself! I'm 1/2 prepared for next Saturday's test already! Another 1/2 will be ready after I contact Mr Phua for consultation ;)

2011-01-17T01:23:00.001+08:00

http://www.wildhoney.com.sg/10/index.htm#c

BREAKFAST CALLING OUT TO ME HAHAHAHA!!

2011-01-15T03:16:00.002+08:00

Hi Dear blog,

I do not know what to do with my horrendous PFP and IF grades. International Finance is a 25% weightage, which means I will never be able to get an A for International Finance even if I get full marks for my end-sem paper already. Wrong concepts, wrong procedures, I can't believe I was so careless in studying for it..

PFP is such a disappointment because I don't even know what wrong I made to deserve such marks. And tutor seems so unwilling to return our paper.

2 failure is enough. No more of such rubbish in Poly. I'm supposed to be one of the smartest in the course, what happened? :( Ohwell.

2011-01-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

Had a great time today with the awesome people :) Went to school early in the morning to finish up CBK project for submission. Phew~ Finally over :D Then headed down to Cathay for lunch with them at Astons! :)

Kbox after at Scape. Omg mad heavy rain! :( But it was really funny cos we had sorethroats and were just...... zao xia-ing. LOL! But Nic has a rather good voice! Got the Jaychou style :D

Dinner at Chinatown after. Gosh, Chinatown has KOI! :D Soooo awesome! Hehehehe. Steamboat buffet was madness lar, stupid Zijie and his muttonsxz. D: Nic and I almost died tasting the Chicken soup turned Mutton soup! D: EEEEEW MAX!

And in all, I still find it wonderful that I've got these friends from such random places! Heidi, Sarene, Zijie, Nicholas, Luther, Clarence, Bobby, Jamie, and all of us come from different backgrounds.. But we got to know one another at Zijie's 21st, attended Nic's 21st altogether, attended Jamie's 21st altogether too. :D Up next is now the 90 kiddos' birthday celebs :) Teehee! :D

On a sidenote, CBK project down, marketing advertisement down, this weekend is for me to RELAX and REJUVENATE! Cos next week onwards, my study plan is officially LAUNCHED.... ;)

2011-01-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

Photoshoot with Today's Parents was good today. The kids are so adorable and totally go gaga over the balloons :) Some miscommunication within their own company, ended up sponsoring only half the items they wanted. Hmm. But in the end, I became their free labour also so yah, my efforts are evident! Anyways, the kids are super adorable :) Super smart and eloquent too! And apparently, it's some shoot for some Gucci thingy I think cos the kids were wearing Gucci clothes from the rack. But then they were also wearing Oshkosh. Hmm :) Still, CUTE! :D

So yea, started late, delayed, in the end I couldn't go for presentation. :( Hahha but it was a great experience I think, minus the hiccups it could've been perfect. Ohwell! At least we ended on a good note!

Damn tired now, gonna sleep early tonight since tomorrow's gonna be a 9am thing. :( Goodnight world. Huifang is very sad cos business is slow..

2011-01-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

Seek solace in lyrics. Always songs are the final audience that never leave. :)

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道妳留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案卻撕掉不要

Shopping today was fun :) Ended up with another outerwear heehee. Well at least it gives me more reason to wear all the sleeveless/ very short sleeved tops! HAHAHAA.. Had dinner with Weijian, his mom and Ashlynn. Ashlynn is really super adorable! Everyone came to talk to her and play with her lar! Even when after that we were walking around Far East, so many people talked to her and waved to her! Mini-star hehe :) Only loot today was that outerwear cos I saw so many tops and bottoms which I didnt like! Looked rather good in when I tried on, but not something I'd wear on a regular basis cos it's so not me :(

CBK project report now. At least, FOI submission is over :) One less subject to worry about! :D

Oh did I mention, Monopoly Deal is addictive! :) So fun strategizing and plotting against one another hahaha..

Alright, off to finish up my CBK report, then prepare my balloons for tomorrow's photoshoot le!
All unhappiness will be over once the day is over.. :)

2011-01-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to feel enthusiastic over a great deal clinched, right?? Right?? Right??

But I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that deal... Haha. -.- So I'm going to seek help from someone I think. I dont know who though. So yah. :X

And yes, I'm supposed to feel happy for Cheryl that she's done well for her O Levels right? Okay yes I am. Lol.

11/1/11 and I'm praying so hard for something significantly nice to happen. It doesn't even have to be special. Just to make me smile. :) Please?

2011-01-09T22:38:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night was a random night of meetup with girls and we ended up at Zouk D: ARGHHHHH!!

Anyways, yesterday's experience walking into stupid Nee Soon Camp was madness laaaaa, early morning, hot weather, WALKED ALL THE WAY IN :( But it was a great show cos we ended early cos the crowd left early hahha! And then it started to drizzle too :P Headed down to Nex lunch with Abi, and then to Singpost for the monthly thingy :) Again, the promoter was interested to join us. HAHAHAH.. He looks like the typical poly-kia but he's aiming to enter VJC :X Hurhur. Never judge a book by its cover manzzzz. But yea, was a good show too! Not too much of a crowd like JP! x)

Headed home wanting to sleep but ended up doing Winston's project. Lol. Super jialat cos I spend 20 min reading something which I can only make 1 minute worth of sense out of :( Which is TERRIBLE.... Thank goodness my project isn't THAT tough :X Else I don't know who to turn to for help hahahhaha.

So yea, went out to Nex for Sogurt with the girls after that and we decided on going to Zouk (PS. No intention to go clubbing onezzzz) so by the time we reached Zouk was already freaking 11pm... Worse still, mad mad long queue. So of cos, I joined Citibank's Priority Queue and guess what, when it finally got close to my turn, like 4th from the front..... "Sorry Citibank entry quota has reached! We will be stopping Citibank with effect from NOW!" AIYOH MEGA SHIT LIFE LOL. Jumped over to Velvet queue and ended up me paying $3 more for entry than Abi and ZW -.- Zzz. Dash Berlin guest DJ and crowd was CRAZY at Zouk. That's not all- Phuture max cap and we couldn't enter also. MEGA FML lo. I think..... I should quit clubbing for the time being and not go. Zz. Cos also very FML, I wanted to order 2 GLASSES of Whisky dry, ended up with 2 FREAKING JUGS....... Tmd. And knowing full well how strong Whisky was, I had no choice but to gulpgulpgulp...... :X Ended up not in the toilet but like some siao za bor I think :X Hurhur. Eric and friends were also there :D Heeheeeeeee cos he's there for Dash Berlin. Aiyah, but half the time, we weren't with them also. Crowd was that terrible. Ended up I had to save myself when I got into some.... bad plight. Zz. Another hint that I should not club. But yea, Eric's friends all over the place too. Hahhaha. So ended up it was a really truly Girl's thing yesterday night :) Awesome girls I have! :D

PS. Our next outing shuold probably be Monopoly Deal, no more of clubbing please :( Everyone's gonna be displeased with me when I club...

2011-01-07T02:21:00.000+08:00

Had a great day- struggling through International Finance tutorial, sleeping in library, pangseh-ed by Storytelling class, cake discovering and making, and free dinner at Nandos.

Regjiejie's exboyf is quite not bad though hahahah :) And it's thanks to him we got free dinner too. Hahha but I still cant believe we went from USQ to Tanglin Mall just for it, and even got a FREE cab ride back LOL!

Oh by the way, USQ girls are having their own convo on Twitter NOW like MSN. Hahhahaa!

Mad tired now. Goodnight world. And Glenn must be in Japan already :)

2011-01-06T01:03:00.004+08:00

Nah, I just need to be part of their topic, talking about going crazy over some new guy.. The worries of having to keep it covered cos you don't want your friends to know, but yet you wanne tell someone... I'll just join in, act like I remember how it feels like, act like I'm going through it now. Hahhaha sorry I don't know how to 'reset' myself.

It's really funny how I can't ever seem to blend in, when last time I couldn't blend in cos they were talking about heartbreaks. Contrast topic. I can never seem to fit in perfectly with everyone.

Maybe there are things I just have to go through and learn before I'll grow up. Well, I haven't turned 21... Yet... But I don't have much time left, do I?

And now a good friend is going off for 5 months. I would seriously madly miss him. And I can't send him off, cos no one is going to cos of the unearthly hour. But seriously, I would. Hey, it isn't for a week man? But well. I'm never the trendsetter. So what if there is Facebook to keep in contact..

I don't like Facebook, period.

I always feel detached from any group I'm with, nowadays.
Maybe it's because I miss you. :)

2011-01-05T00:38:00.002+08:00

It has been such a terribly hectic week!

Getting back PFP horror, getting back FOI encouragement, getting back..... Nah, nothing else for now. Oh well.

And I haven't seen brother for... Idk how long :( Weh!

And I'm still loving my USQ Scoopies :) Dinner today with them was so awesome! Pasta de Waraku really is as awesome as it seems :) Point proven! Hehehe.

Been so busy with projects and tutorials too. I've got to buck up. Otherwise, everyone will enter Uni and I'm really being left behind. I don't want to be left behind. I don't want to fail any subject. I need a minimum B for all my subjects. I cannot let any subject be the fucking black sheep and pull down all my other efforts!

Why the hell must I be involved in Open House zz.. I've got project to do -.-

2010-12-31T23:35:00.002+08:00

Hello dear blog, you have been my loyal friend for the past years. And yet again, here's the end of another year.. 2010 coming to an end in awhile..

Zijie's 21st in March.. Easter madness in April.. All the big hiccups and tears in June over a stupid penalty.. Genting trip in June with Winston and Ernest which was really a good getaway (Minus the TP fine, police swearing at us, and getting lost by going up the wrong road).. JB/KL trip via car with Winston in August.. Ben and Jerry's in August till present.. And of cos my awesome birthday celebration in August..

Random things too- like going to a Gay club first time in my life, getting drunk first time in my life (not that badly drunk la), making new friends through friends and getting close as a clique..

And last but not least, registering our own company. Really a big thankyou to Winston for guiding me all this while, always losing patience with me cos I'm so stubborn sometimes, for never ever giving in to me when we argue be it on company or personal matters, but yet never ever giving up on me :) Korkor it's another year we've known each other for. And thankyou for all that you have done for me always! :D MANY LOVESSS!

Definitely m awesome team too- Winston, Peiwen, Abi, Alicia, Celeste, Amanda, Weijian, Charlene, Hayden. Even though some of them are dem guailan sometimes but no matter what they are still the most awesome supporters. Without Winston, my business is nothing. Without them, we'd be nothing either :) But yes, I'm sure 2011 will be a better year for ALL of us! :D

2010-12-26T01:25:00.001+08:00

This Christmas has been rather terrible :(

Met up with the JC clique yesterday and Luther, Nic, ZJ, Clar, Sarene and Heidi were there :) Went to Suntec to watch Jamie cos she was playing the piano for Christmas carols! Super cooool :) Dinner after and where else which was not packed? NOWHERE cos everywhere was full-house! Sat there calling place after place D: Until awesome me thought of Playnation HEHEHE :) And wellll, it was supposedly full-house but I was whining that I'm a member and they put me on waiting list next to be called :D So yeaaaa, within 15 minutes I got that call back and we got our slots!

Mario-ed, Wii sports-ed, Rockband-ed, blah blah rabbitzzzz. Hahhaha. Reached home at 2am + but I only slept at 5am + yesterday, cos I was cutting up the boxes for papa to paint today. Phew. So yea, today was spent on doing the URA buildings, landscaping, canvas, blah blah. Thank goodness for Arty friends like WJ otherwise I wouldnt know what to do with the paints and where to buy the canvasssss D: Hurhur~

On a sidenote, as a result of yesterday's intensive Playnation + a countdown inside their store, I partially lost my voice today. And could not emcee June's wedding with Zhong ming :( Spent the whole morning and afternoon searching for an available replacement and phewwww, fortunately for WJ's friend! :D It seemed to have gone well according to what ZM told me though :) Hehe! Fortunately fortunately!

Nevertheless, this Christmas, I gave love through 2 icecream cakes :) One 1kg for Winston's family and one 0.5kg for Abi's family when she's back. I hope korkor's family thinks it awesomely pretty! :):) Hehehhe. And still, next week is gonna be intensive-
Mon: Shopping with mom and aunts/ URA final draft due (Things 2/5 done only..)
Tues: Meetupzz with 0820 girls Tammy, Reg etc etc for lunch! (FINALLY!) Then dinner with my lovely USQ babes :)
Wed: Workzzzzzzz ZZZzzzZzzzZzzZZzzz.. And maybe night out?
Thurs: URA preparation day
Fri: URA event proper + COUNTDOWN PARTY!!

2010 passed by so quickly.. And it's gonna be the new year soon. In 2011, I wish for many many things :) I wish for all of my dreams to come through and I wanne always be that happy lil' girl with many many loves for my best brother and my awesome friends :)

2010-12-22T01:35:00.000+08:00

Company party was awesome :) Really.

We all love Pinata, yes? HAHAHAHHA. Judging from response today, there's no one who doesnt like Pinata. Hmm... Maybe Winston :P HEHEHEHE!

2010-12-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

HEEHEE :) Went to Playnation today with Winston and Ernest! :D Wheeeee~

And we won the Home team at Super Mario! :D So we went there to play, eat and everything for free!! WHEEEEE :) And you know what, it's mad fun to play Super Mario Wii :P And Winston also said it's mad fun okayyy :) The Home team guy (Everyone kept calling him Boss?) was damn funny cos he kenna screwed upside down by Winston's throws. Our aim was to reach the finish point first! EASY RIGHT :) So we were planning- Huifang to chiong ahead, Ernest to ensure in the middle, and Winston to jump on that guy's head (blue mushroom!) non-stop and throw him around during the game to make him fall into the hole and die HAHHAHA AND IT WORKED MANY TIMES! :DDD But that guy also damn pro lo seriously lolol :P

Headed down to Bugis, Tampines and then to USQ! Bought so many things things today for the party :) Damn fun please! Shopping with Winston arhhhhh mad funny cos we always end up buying random stuff :P HEHEHHEEHHE!!

9 cakes owing now! D: ARGH!

2010-12-15T23:59:00.001+08:00

"Sitting in front of you is the richest Scoopy we have okay! Dun play play arh!"

Zzz... Regine made me damn paiseh wtf D: LOL.

2010-12-13T01:44:00.002+08:00

This weekend has been a rather awesome one :)

Besides one client calling and screaming at me for things I supposedly promised but did not do (Take note in black and white that wasn't promised/ discussed prior to party), and one night of feeling-like-I'm-dead-I'm-so-freaking-tired.

Saturday morning's 8.30am hideously early Entrepreneurship Forum turned out better than I expected :) Much as I was dozing off, I was dozing off cos of lethargy but yet mind was taking in what the entrepreneurs shared. Too bad my business doesn't qualify for SPRING Singapore's grant cos it's not full-time :( But it was a great experience hearing them share about their journey, problems, etc etc. :D

Weekend shows were in general rather awesome, especially the 2 that Winston, Amanda and I did today :) One for Winston's tutor and one for a really patient and endure-all-my-careless-mistakes client. Mad awesome cos the adults were all so spontaneous, and the kids were so enthusiastic and well-behaved! :D

And of cos, awesome weekend with awesome brother :D Mad tiring and literally panting going for shows but I definitely was glad to do shows with the awesome korkor :D HEHEHE cos that means dinner after! Hate it when I have to dinner alone or head off to da bao home after shows cos no korkor... Bah. :(

Even met Charlene and Jensen at J8 when Winston and I were having dinner there hahaha omg mad coincidence.. :X And stupid Jensen damn cheapo LOLOL. Tail behind us at exit to kop free parking. TSK! Charleneeeeeee, your boyf horrrrrrrr! LOL pleaseeeee :P

Coming week is exams week for korkor and myself. Gosh- I should worry- FOI exams in less than 24 hours and I'm still not done with revision. I shall go orh orh now and wake up in the morning to study heehee :DDDD

YO AWESOME BROTHER! :)

2010-12-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAHA it's super hilarious how people complain about the same issue, and how some people just don't seem to take it seriously.

Late pay, no time to travel, overload, no materials, low pay, blah blah blah blah..

Hahha don't you find it coincidental it's always the same few issues? :P The only 2 things I feel sad of with regards to this issue:

1. Feel bad for intro-ing my friends to such shit
2. Feel sad for the person who never thinks for others..

So what if they have fame? They leave ugly trails somewhere else while leaving prettaye trails along the line of fame..

On the other hand, Uncle Eddie's so awesomely funny! Uncle WT, Uncle Eddie and Fung Yee came down to Scoop U to tidy up cos of yesterday's complaint leading to spot check tomorrow. Oh welllll~ But damn epic funny scene- the 3 of them complaining and ranting as they tidy up omgzz LOL!

And you know what, tests next week :( FML...
Someone said I'm a godsend today :D

2010-12-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

I feel so abused today :( Got shouted at and threatened by a customer over the phone when I wasn't even involved. :(

Apparently, his son vomitted when he called (6.30pm), after they had visited our store at 4.50pm. And he says that it's MY chocolate ice cream's fault. Accused that we were unhygienic people and so irresponsible cos our Boss wasn't in the store and thus were behaving this way. And because my Boss wasn't around, he said he's gonna complain to the NEA NOW and they're gonna come spot check on us NOW. Fine, so be it. 'Nuff said, right? Went on again to bring out the fact that his son vomitted and it's so APPALLING that we serve such food and we'd better WATCH OUT.

I hate people threatening me FYI.
I don't like people accusing me of something I NEVER did- or even came close to doing. I wasn't even in the store at 4.50pm -.- I was on the cab, along Moulmein Road- I remember checking the time on the cab.

Called Lyna, called Ray da jie, called Uncle Eddie, only Ray da jie picked up my call and told me to calm down. I was really traumastised bang on the fact that it wasn't my fault and if NEA comes NOW, it becomes my fault?!

Ends up, Lyna said Unilever's coming down to pick up the bulk for lab tests. Wtf please. Impossible that our scoops are contaminated- cos our dip well has been leaking non-stop since yesterday = have to keep on adding in new water = dirty water get leaked out. CONTAMINATION MEH?? And I thought the one container which housed 3 scoops without any water change except during half day would be less clean compared to that! D:

TERRIBLE CUSTOMER LAH!
Anthony is such a bastard.. I don't care- it's not my fault. So he's wrong to threaten me. HUMPH.

Oh did I mention? PFP is screwed up. I anyhow-ly did the final 10 marks, which was equivalent to half the paper.

2010-12-06T23:36:00.002+08:00

My days have been awesome but mad. Baking cookies, laughing at no-no boo-boos, pon-ing class to study for test, blah blah blah..

Met a cab driver whom is Bedok South CC's Chairperson and closed a deal with him :) Awesome rightttt :) Santa Claus deal was also closed while I was work at Bnj. Hmm.. And recently, have been really onzzz about making cakes. Made 4 last week, out of which 2 are sold already.. Making another 2 more this coming week teehee :D

PFP test tomorrow to which I think can go and bang wall die cos I'm not prepared at all. Wanted to go USQ study, to which Mayvina asked me to help out for awhile while she went for a quick lunch lol. But after helping out, no mood study already :X So only read through 2.5 chapters out of 4. And I'm mad tired now :( Abi and co came to store to celebrate ZW's awesome 20th today :D With a cake I made! Siao lo I think, they spam icecream, cakes, cookies, lalalala :D Haha! Imma gonna make them fat fat cute cute :D Heehee.

And now worrying for my phone all over. Everyone's getting attached. Haha. Yah that's part of growing up. No wonder friends leave, they come and go, yadah yadah. Whatever, when they get attached and forget about me, so be it. It's not like I have a choice either. :)

Even when I tell myself, I should get a car to drive round by myself, I realised I can't stand being alone. But when everyone gets so busy with work, esp Abi and co, I don't have a choice- do I?

At time I wonder, why push someone away knowing you wont be able to resist this friendship? We should just let things take it's course according to nature....

2010-12-04T02:49:00.002+08:00

Too much apart to come close, even.

Again reminded of what a friend's mom's advice was. Reality :)

Too much hunger to satisfy. Instead of curing it, I fed it, and it got worse. No one else's fault but mine.
Tired and too much to say, too much to think about, too much to tell you. Goodnight blog, you've always been my best pal. :)

2010-12-02T03:20:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, am reminded of the short chat that Regine and I had just yesterday. Or rather, 2 days back, since it's like past midnight now.

She was telling me about how she actually did neglect her friends back when she was attached for a few years. Gosh.. And now thinking back, she feels like she kind of did her friends injustice cos she never had time for them lo. But after all that has happened, friends still stand by strong and she has Mayvina etc..

Hearing her account of things that had happened before made me realise, that no matter what, friends are those whom never leave your side no matter what happens. No matter what happens, I know I have friends that I can turn to, friends that I can fall back on, friends whom tell me "Iloveyou" with their hearts. :)

Thankyou Regine, for reminding me of friends. Much as her topic was random, it was a great reminder..

Did you feel my love in the cakes I've done before? Many told me they did :) And these are the people whom give me hope :) LGMH.

2010-12-02T00:59:00.002+08:00

Back from dinner + dessert with my dear Scoopys :)

Mayvina's farewell dinner was a success okayy she totally did not suspect anything! :D Turns out, dinner at Nando's was actually quite okay :) Hehe. Funny thing was how we lingered around to take pics at the Xmas deco outside Tanglin Mall, then when we finally split ways with Mayvina + BF, we ended up at the same place still -.- HAHAHA. Went to Swirl Art and actually met the 2 of them there! Coincidence yo! :)

And wellll, Regine's just texted me about my cakes :D Hehe. Well done okay :) Am still too lazy to upload the pics hahahha. Hopefully tomorrow when I work, I can sell off MY OWN CAKE! Wheeee!

Oh yes, Mayvina got us Icecream hairties. Super duper cute :DDD

And did I mention? It's mad awesome to go out with friends whom drive. Joanna took her papa's car and fetched us home, and you know what? She could drop me off at my block downstairs also- cos she lives just opposite my block. HAHHAHAHA :D YAY!

OMG I'm damn tired now and I still owe Delia 2 surveys. I hope she still gives my surveys lots of love and decide to promote me okay? :D

2010-11-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today was a mad mad day.

Only went for 2 hours lesson in total :X

P-plate celebration day was spent with cakes cakes, and irritating kids fom the Scoopy-for-a-day class. Seriously the kids today arh.. Except for some cute ones, the rest were either too aloof or damn act-smart.

Anyways, my cakes turned out really nice today :) And the moment I took them out for display, someone was requesting to check out the flavours already! :D Too bad it wasn't Sc&c, otherwise that lady sure immediately buy okayyy :( I shall upload all the pics on FB hehehe.

And saw a really hilarious case of BMW6 series disturbing Maserati GranTurismo on my way home. LOL..

And I hearts a Subaru. Too bad he's taken. Aww. Even dad says he's handsome! How can he possibly not be lar! Eh, I'm no longer a P plate at long last... Finally.. Can drive other options available now! :)

Ah shit, test next week :X

2010-11-30T02:07:00.001+08:00

First Korean song I am ever hooked onto in my whole life. MAD NICE. All thanks to Audition which brought me the title of this song. Spark by Koyote!

And I can't sing the chorus for nuts cos it's Korean HAHAHA. But I still like what the lyrics mean after translastion :)

You cant forget everything merely by the words "Im Sorry"

yeah, is y"all feeling that right here
let"s do it like the last album right
come on say ha ha come on say ha ha
let"s rock this party down let"s go now

I've realized now that everything has gone wrong
I didnt know anything because I was busy loving you
I didnt know that I was dating my friends lover
Its so hard for me, even when I try to set things straight, I cant see the end

Stop it, Im happy with you. Dont leave me, dont go
We havent seen each other for the longest time but Im happy with you
It was short, but I gave everything to you and I sacrificed things for you
Stop it, what am I supposed to do if you just leave like this

Now everyone stand up, shout out louder
Dont worry, hold my hand
The time has come, raise your voices now 3,2,1
let"s turn the party yea

Dont forget my burned out love
Dont forget me being burned out
You cant forget with any reason
Im leaving you now but I will ask you to wait
Because we love, because you are mine, I will come back to you

Stop it, Im happy with you. Dont leave me, dont go
We havent seen each other for the longest time but Im happy with you
It was short, but I gave everything to you and I sacrificed things for you
Stop it, what am I supposed to do if you just leave like this

Even though the skies temporarily split us apart
We are destined to be together

My love for you will never change
Dont worry, you can always come back, dont worry about me
I will forever wait for you, my love is always you
My love is you

2010-11-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

My new manager is damn cuteeee :D She's mad blur, mad forgetful, and mad funny :D Wellll, some Scoopys were saying her jokes are super not funny but I think the way she tells it makes it hilarious enough already :) Hehehe.

And taking so long to reply an email still full of typo errors.. Not very sincere. Nah, crossed-out. :X

And I'm gonna conduct a Scoopy-for-a-day class tmrw HAHAH EXCITING :)))
Then end off the day tmrw with making 3 cakes!! Designs inspiration anywhere? :) Hehe.

2010-11-27T11:32:00.001+08:00

They dont seem to understand what is:

"Banking & Finance is tough. Stop nagging at me over nothing."

Zzz. Projects are overpowering, so are the upcoming tests. :(

2010-11-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

Wellll today was a drama day lar seriously. :X

Rushed from class which so shockingly ended late, to Toapayoh to meet Noel for Cheers, rushed down to work and WOOHOO OMG I got convinced by Noel to take train rather than cab D: What's gotten into me. HAHAH! But anywaysss, Barney show again at 7pm today :D Damn happy to see Barney IDK why D: Maybe cos I'm not the one singing with Barney, but instead, am watching him! Gosh. BJ and Babybop are so adorable too :D

And then at closing there was this stupid lady.. None of my business really, but she was really disturbing, complaining to the security about this guy's terrible attitude and rudeness, and even calling the police in. Pleeeease larh this is just such a small matter.. Delayed the shop's closing and the cops were looking rather displeased too. Her husband included please. He wanted to take the kids away. And she was ranting on about the cops not wanting to support her on this case blah blah. And she irritated me by asking "YOU SAW WHAT HAPPENED JUST NOW OVER THERE RIGHT!" to which I replied "No, sorry, we're very busy." and you know what that STUPID bitch said???? "NO I KNOW YOU SAW EVERYTHING." Wtf please! Even if I saw, even if I heard, I also wouldnt give a damn about such a troublesome wart like you! The sales assistant already apologized to her even in front of the cops but she just refused to let the matter rest. RUBBISH LAH -.- Anyway, it was Ying whom saw abit abit of what happened too. I only noticed her when Ying told me about it and then the next moment she was standing outside our store kb-ing loudly.

But Ying and I get to enjoy a benefit- ESCALATORS! Cos the security guards were so busy with the cops that they couldn't go lock up the doors and off the escalators :P HEHEHEHE..

Oh did I mention, while doing POS closing today, Ying and I found a VISA settlement printed at 4am.............. Who did it?

2010-11-24T22:41:00.002+08:00

Alot matters on status. And again, it falls back on how humble one is.

Saying it and doing it are different things. Having seen people fail- some of which are pure stupid; some of which are really a miscalculation. I can see myself bringing my own downfall by continuing giving in at this rate. In the first place, I shouldnt even be in this plight. Dont ever use what you understand of me to your advantage and think you have control over me.

I will leave if really need be. Fuck care the free ice creams.

On a sidenote, I saw Barney and friends today. Total goosebumps cos it was so different standing and singing with Barney as compared to watching Barney live! Btw, all the Scoopys got so excited over it too. D:

Never grow up.

Project still kind of sucks and tutorials are kind of rotting.

Stupid idiots who dont bother replying to emails...

2010-11-23T21:38:00.003+08:00

Cough cough! Sick again :( Mehhh!

School's been bad. Projects slowing down like totally! OMG D: Terribleee. Buck up Huifang buck up..

And LG's lost now. I guess thats the last I'll ever see of LG and lovely text msgs inside :'(
But well, it was also due to my own carelessness. Sad!

In the meantime, being bored off by stupid two-faced idiots aint exciting. Zz. Deleting you off Facebook, then acting nice via email asking how you are. Zz. Disgusting please. Oh gosh Winston. You would wanne hear about this. Hahh!

Boomsssss cough cough :( Off to project!

2010-11-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

Awesome celebration for korkor's birthday today :) :) HEEHHEHEHEHE!

And here's the cake that I'd been hiding for 1 week in the freezer, to which Winston brought home and melted on the way :X Hurhur~

But it's nice okay :) It's done by me OKAY! HAHHAAHHA..
And know what? We had mad fun at Playnation. Lol! Playing Wii = madness esp Just Dance and Mario! :D Mad unglam and lots of screaming and all, but we had funnnn :) Totally puts other similar-concept cafes out of business okay :P

Nevertheless, even though Winston wasn't surprised at my awesome cake, I still hope he enjoyedddd :) Cos I think it was a really fun time that the bunch of us had wahahhaa :D I wanne go back there again! :)

And then *SNAP* back to reality, tomorrow is Monday. Gosh~

2010-11-20T01:10:00.001+08:00

2010-11-18T00:30:00.002+08:00

Waaa life has been so busy busy!

Tutorials, check!
Study, half check!
Projects, CHECK CHECK CHECK!

Finally start of projects-chiong period le. I think I'll enjoy the projects though :) Am managing very well with excel and guideline questions so far. Group's great too.

Brief Hari Raya break = shows day. Hahha.

I kinda like the pace we're going at cos kids and adults love us :D Yay-ness to the max. Website to be done up soon, advertising gonna start rolling soon.

Please GPA, love me as much too okay? :)

And you know what bloggie? BB DIED :(
Why hasnt Brightstar called me back regarding BB :( Weh.

Say you love me, Say you love me
Then put it in a love song (Put it in a love song)
Say you need me, Say you need me
Then write it in a letter for me (Oh oh oh)
Say you want me, Say you want me
Then text me on the cell phone (Text me on my cell phone)
Say you love me, Say you love me
Then put me in a love song (Oh)

2010-11-15T10:01:00.002+08:00

Ahh..

2 years later, someone whom I havent talked to since JC days has come to talk to me. Instead of me approaching him, this time round he has. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!

Remember Mickey mouse, or someone whom used to be so afraid of the dark and horror movie? :P

Nah, my JC friends don't visit my blog anymore, only theyd know who I'm referring to.. Lol.

On the other hand...
FML. URA meeting in an hour's time..

2010-11-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

Well,

it's all just about individual decision, right?

What I do, I dont regret. But seriously, there's a limit to it. Stupid bitch.

I guess I really would be happier off not working there.
But the incentives and perks are oo-laa-laa! SERIOUSLY...

And damn, BB died today :( Please let there be a mirable tomorrow :(

2010-11-10T22:59:00.001+08:00

First time doing closing for POS on my own. Success :)

And finally got round to starting on a new cake :) Hehehehehhehehehehehe..

But today bimbo moments x2:
1. Chopped the banana into slices before realising I should have peeled the skin before chopping it
2. I cant remember but I was so desperate to hide it Tiff laughed damn loudly at me -.-

Oh, did I mention, school's still equally terrible? :(
But well, I guess I chose this route ahhaha :D I can do as well as Winston de! EHHEHEHEHEHEHE :D

2010-11-09T01:16:00.002+08:00

Mehhh. Ranting piece, so just leave if you dont want to read all that. Anyways, not many readers to my blog.

So many issues are bothering me on weekdays:
1. Neverending tutorials
2. The unstarted projects
3. Revision
4. Calls from clients
5. Long calls from clients
6. Open challenges from clients over the phone
7. Worrying about how to manage everything all at once

Yawns. I am mad mad damn tired. But I can't seem to sleep even though I'm factually doing nothing cos so many things are unsettled. I can't study at home. I should divide some corner in my house maybe.. But then again, that's another story.

School has been rather terrible; Cheryl and I are really whining and groaning about our electives and class don't seem to make it better. My class is too cheeky. Which is a good thing factually, but then again I feel so relaxed with them I lose that sense of urgency. ARGH :( But most of them seem so smart I feel so stupid if I don't speak anything in class. Even when it's tutorials I have to be able to answer something and get the acknowledgement from the tutor that I got it right. Else there's this irritating nagging feeling at the back of my mind telling me that I am really losing out to others.

And did I mention I'm smiling and laughing less in school? The only times I smile are when I meet my ex classmates, are when I'm in Comm Skills class- that's the only class I'm confident of doing well enough in. I dont think I can be happy studying something I'm insecure of.

My timetable can go ahead and die because it's so terrible I don't have much desired time to study. Monday after school is the much-needed study time but Monday ends at 6pm. Tuesday is the day I'd want to do my own stuff but yet there's a long 3 hours break for me to study. :( Wednesday is my desired rest day but I end at 3pm and that is the reason why I work on Wednesdays. Terrible timetable..

Somehow, I dont feel very happy this semester, be it studying, revising, project or whatsoever. I dont get the assurance that I'll be able to do well in all my modules. There's this nagging worry that I'm really stupid. I dont know why. I thought it was because I'm trying very hard to outshine Winston, but I realised that despite all, it's not like I can catch up with him within one semester; so that isn't really my concern. But probably the decreasing GPA, decreasing at the rate of 0.1 per semester. Time to turn things around, but I'm not sure how confident I am of turning it around. Want to put in effort, but I'm so afraid of it cos I feel so insecure and clueless whenever I enter lectures and exit lectures.

The only reason why I've not been able to sleep well, reason why I've not been sleeping on bus rides, and result? Sleepy at lectures and forcing myself to stay awake.

Coffee shall start to substitute my main courses for a start tomorrow. Let's see how it assists me in conquering 9am-5pm with 3 hours of mugging in between.

I have a feeling I won't survive well. But fuck, I dont have a choice, do I? I have to endure through this and do well, and I know I have to do this alone cos no one is there to help me. Mummy cant help me with B & F stuff, Winston is busy with school, there's practically no one of my friends in the B & F line that can help me with getting through this.

And this is when I miss Abi's study sessions madly :(

Hopefully at the end of this semester, I can look back at this stupidity and smile at it.
Hi Winston, I hope you're still reading my blog and really really hope you know how I'm feeling at this point of time. Tyvm....

2010-11-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

I look forward to weekends and dread when Monday comes. :)

But now at least I know, my weekends are the best I can have in each week.

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

No matter how many times, LGMH will always give me hope.
I know that maybe it would take years, but then again, it doesn't matter.

Cos youre amazing, just the way you are :)

2010-11-06T19:27:00.002+08:00

Timo's birthday was a blast yesterday night! :D

I liked his party's concept, giving out instant-prints photos to us :D It's super cooool! :) And wellll, he was already half drunk by the time we left his place I guess! :D Everyone (Ok not exactly everyone but many of them!) headed down to St James after. Gahhh, ended up in The Boiler Room, which is like OMG cos there was this guy doing standup comedy on stage. An attempt to outshow Kumar but apparently rather failed :X HAHAHHAHA.. In the end, decided to head over to Powerhouse (Yah again.. Again a place that HF no likes actually....) But oh well, it's Timo's birthday! :D Stupid Noel and Glenn go around bio zabor one lo hahhahhahah. Abi was like O.o LOL!!

Headed to 126 for supper after cos everyone was hungry hahhah :P Home sweet home after!

Show today was AWESOME :)
Going to meet Abi and ZW for a Girl's night out supper tonight! :D Korkor, sorry pangseh you for one more night! :X Hehehehehe.

2010-11-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

Accident again today. Nah, I didn't drive. I was in a cab from Point A to Point B when it happened. HAHAHAH :X Stupid motorcyclist. On the lane that was optional right-turn or straight-going, he chose to GO STRAIGHT from my RIGHT when I was obviously turning right with the signal on.

BAM!

Not my fault. He chose to spew vulgarities. Serves you right for not riding properly honestly. Taxi driver uncle was damn stylo, immediately unwound window and told him off for riding at wrong lane/ side. Obiquek, you met the powerful uncle today. Super suay much. HORN HORN! JAM BRAKE! It is kind of disturbing. Zz. Lucky taxi had only a small dent and taxi uncle decided to throw this matter aside. The motorcyclist super kuku though. This uncle obviously very power, still wanne argue...

Uncle "Excuse! I need to get out to see my car how.. What if got one hole? Spoil how?"
Motorcyclist "Eh MY BIKE ALSO SPOIL LAH HOW HOW YOU TELL ME?"

Stupid enough. He's at fault for being at wrong side of lane already still wanne argue -.-

Taxi driver uncle was super pissed but still kept apologizing to me for having been through that terrible situation hahhaha :P Oh wellll~

And Ray is super fun to work with! Working with her is always the best cos she's always wanting to take care of us, always saying she'll wash the stuff instead of letting us do it! :D But still, I do insist I do part of the stuff too lah! :D Yay she's the best da jie da lo :)

More bookings c'mon c'mon :) Enthu over more shows to be done! Winston did a good one today :D

2010-11-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

School's been annoyingly tiring, with all the mad-shit tutorials and all. Classmates have been impossibly crazy yet on a different frequency as me. :(

Itouchie has finally arrive yesterday, after Winston's had arrived last Friday to his gleeee :D And I'm still mad stuck to it. Hehehhe. Sorry, new plaything :D

Business has been relatively fine, surviving, mad busy, love my guys whom made it possible for me to survive through October. 43 shows! :D Awesome :) And it's excluding Childrens' Day shows :)

November. Another challenge- stage 2 :) Let's go!

2010-10-31T01:11:00.002+08:00

Post-MBKP lifestyle has been a bitch.

I think it's just luck. I've met so many unpleasant cheapo Singaporeans that are freaking self-centred, selfish and kiasu.

"Just one gun for him lor.. Only one, give him will do."
"Can I have this? *points to a half-made balloon in front of queue* I just need one balloon. My daughter has no balloon."
"But he likes your hat, can't you give it to him? Just him?"
"Just tell the jiejie you want it. If you ask she'll give it to you first *cuts queue cos of what mom says*"
"Just one gun what, very difficult to make meh? Can't you bring more balloons? He only wants gun, nothing else" (FYI, he himself said he wants a sword LOL)

What the hell is wrong with all these Singaporeans??! It's not like you're paying for ME to be at your event. It's the event organiser whom did. You're getting free balloons, who are you to demand from me?! LOL. Biggest joke is when they persistently plant ideas into kids' minds when kids are just satisfied with a teddy bear/ poodle balloon. Adults are so irritating at times.

2 types of parents:
1. Good culture, good upbringing of kids, kids are those whom automatically thank us and take our alternative suggestions when we say 'not enough time'
2. Terribly horrible culture, lousy upbringing, kids are those whom demand this and that and don't bother saying thanks, and are stubbornly idiotic to not understand English

See how contrasting mankind can get. It's so annoying I wanne pull their hair out! D: Whenever I get kids from category 1, I just wanne shower them with whatever love I can give within that period of time. Cos they really make my day, and make me realise that hey, I'm appreciated by you, lil kid. But those annoying and irritating others, ARGH!

Spent alot of time liasing with guests and such during events today. Hahha. Today I fulfil role of PR ^^ Building bond is important okay!
But anyways, our Halloween event was a big fat giant BLAST :) Success!! Glad that the kids enjoyed, the adults enjoyed, the staff enjoyed, and the company was impressed by us :D Awesome-ly done :)

Next round tomorrow! Goodnight world :D

2010-10-27T01:27:00.001+08:00

"Cream of the crop"
Whatever larh you all :( I'm the cob of corn hahahaha.

School's been a bitch :( Only 2 lectures today but = 4 hours of torture. Probably first 2 hours was a fine-fine thing cos I could cope with the kinda common-sense stuff, but the later 2 hours was torture.

3 hours of study tomorrow to complete tutorials, have committed. Dont't run away girl.

And I'm so excited for the 29th!! :D YAY YAY! Praying hard hard for morning please!! :D Alright, should go sleep now for presentation of ideas tomorrow at Commskills II :( Blah.

2010-10-25T23:58:00.006+08:00

First day back at school today! :D

And there's homework already. Super sian :( Screwed up schedule- ended up skipping the first lesson of Comm Skills II. Luckily there's Swee Ping in my class :D YAY! A familiar face~ And she actually took note of homework for me HAHAHA :X FML.

But anyways, the show went really well :) Kids recognized me, kids fighting with me (ARGH!), happy client, happy mommys with their flower bracelets, awesome kids with their swords to chase away the CHEEKY MONKEYS! as the little kids call it :) Swiss Club is a really nice place! Except for the overflowing monkeys jumping within 50m reach :X

Oh but the perks? Saw this annoyingly-hot angmoh guy- he's like, tanned, flawless complexion, flawless flawless, totally :X Eh eh, too bad, my party was by the poolside so I was actually aware of my surroundings- 2 angmoh uncles teaching kids how to swim (I really liked that culture! Rewarding them when they did well :)), and yes, back to that hot angmoh guy. He's like in his early 20s. Ahhh :P And he walked past me a couple of times to get stuff like water and all. And yes, being a Balloonist, people look at you cos of your balloons not cos you're pretty. D: LOL! Eh okay reality check. But he was hovering there after his swim for like 30 minutes?! Eh hehehe.

And stupid kuku Ray the da jie called me an SPG cos I told her about this guy D: RAWRRR!! Ray bad lar! HAHA. But working with Ray is always fun because she's like really good in everything (except brownie cutting :P) and she teaches me stuffs whenever possible :D YAY! I wanne make more good cakes okay, so my shifu can be proud of me? Hehehehehe.

Next stop, Toa Payoh post office, AXS Machine, DBS Bank, and Temasek Poly D: Anti-climaxmaxmax.
On the other hand, korkor's having free time next week :D So no procrastinating HF, please complete all your work within 2 working days of your lecture to free time for play. :D

2010-10-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

Had a great week running around, enjoying life of the last week for this hols. :)

Ernest's birthday was yesterday night at Pasir Ris. Hehe. Had fun on Wii okayyy :D Winston and Weijian are pokpoks~ Wheeee!! Actually, I guess our fun time was the Peanut Butter Cup portion of the chalet :D We sneaked awayyyy to the poolside to enjoy our icecreammmm :D Loves the Peanut Butter Cups! But I think we should head off to Candy Empire to buy the snack itself will do :X The icecream bit 'jelardddddd' D: LOL!

But anyways, timetable is out, korkor still has another 2 weeks of hols but I dont have :( Luckily, we can still go and play for 2 more weeks HEHEHEHE :P

Either way, things have been smooth, I've been busy, and so has korkor and all my dearest guys :D

2010-10-20T23:03:00.003+08:00

In one bing bang bong moment, the holidays are endingggg :(

I am still coughing like nobody's business HAIS :( Wellll, but considering I've been living a rather luxurious lifestyle, no complaints la huh? :D

Been spending alot on many stuffs lately, been missing out catching up with friends, ALAMAK, where have all my Public Speaking class and 2b02 classmates gone to. LOL!

And yet and yet, life's been really fulfilling.. Got the congratulatory letter today :D Even korkor is also mad happy heeee :)

The rest of week- no time to rest! Packed with activities and work :P
Gotta wake up at 7am tmrw even.. :( RAWR~

2010-10-18T23:28:00.002+08:00

It's only when we start to do business on our own, then we start to see the ugly behind mankind.

Looking down on a business just because they're not registered yet isn't really ethical. And honestly, I gave in cos I dont want to spoil any friendship. But when the 3rd party is shirking responsibility and not replying emails of asking you pay up?

WTF.

'Nuff said. If he reminds them and they still refuse to pay up or give a logical explaination, it's the end, I shall lodge whatever legal complaint I have against them to get that amount back.

I AM SO ANGRY!

And I am not racist, but why do ALL my clients of a certain race always give me alot of problems?! Downgrade, withdraw, bargain, downgrade, bargain, bargain, whine and complain, bargain... Notice how many times 'complain' comes into the picture?

That's how irritating they are.

2010-10-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

Wtfurrrrk lar :(

iTouch!
Am stuck between choicesssss :X

I thought I convinced myself an iPhone/ iTouch wasn't needed, until Winston brought it into the pic again! HAHAHAHA :( ARGH!

2010-10-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

Many changes in my life.

Finally, next week is the last week of October. Alot of things have been pushing me here and there; many hesitant decisions made; some regrets; some happiness and some disappointments.

But I know that no matter how bad things get, we can definitely solve it if we voice our opinions properly. As adults, there's no point in being unhappy with another party over anything no matter how trivial or major it may be. Friends have split, friends have made up. But here I am, still struglling to cope with everything.

HAHA. The biggest joke in my world, is probably myself. I am so screwed up sometimes.

But I really hope next week Thursday is liberation day for me. I'll have to get busy packing up and all, but I know I'll definitely make it someday..

2010-10-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

Day today today today was mad mad mad fun :D

Strawberry cheesecake milkshake OMG.. I think I'd stick to sneaking milkshakes from the excess made for customers. Drank a cup today myself and I almost died from bloated-ness :(

And I just signed a package... That everyone would scold me for. ARgh. :X Hahha. But it's useful.. 'In the long run' HAHAHHA :P

Client meeting went well, Pasarmalam madness with Weijian, his mom and Ashlynn after :D Ashlynn so cuteeeeeeee!! Love her so much :D

And of cos, I'm looking forward to tomorrow, cos it's BB-day! :D
Meet my new love! :D

2010-10-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

Again a day of coughing~

My Little Campus today was awesome :D Hahha. And so funny, the training at night, we were like rivalling ants, and ended up with many loud pops D: LOL!

Cough cough coughs~
Tomorrow's gonna be a cool mad-awesome day cos I'm doing Opening alone again! It's my turn to show that I can do things right okay!! :D

My life has been busy, I dont need you tootlousystupidshit to make me worse. Go awayyyyy hahahah yes korkor it's your favourite person I'm referring to. :)

2010-10-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

Still coughinggggg :( Ate liek a goat today cos I fed on 'grass'. Siao lo, first time I eat Subway so spam veges one :(

I want to sleep 12 hours undisturbedddd :(

And I'm looking forward to my new plaything tomorrow muahhhhhh :D :D :D YAYYY!!!